Personal Testimony

I considered whether or not I should post this.   Due to the nature of this blog, I decided it might be a good idea to throw it out there before it got thrown back to me.


When you’re posting political stuff, it can get nasty.  Politics is a real blood sport.  Even if you aren’t personally running for public office, if you’re supporting someone and working super hard to get information out to the public, sometimes, things come back to bite you.  That’s life. 


I grew up in a mostly secular Jewish home on the east coast, the second oldest of four kids and the only female.  My dad was a functioning blackout alcoholic with a mean streak.  My mom was simply overwhelmed by all the chaos and other stuff that takes place in that kind of environment.  Life wasn’t easy for me as a visually challenged kid.  I was born with a weird and unusual neurological condition that causes my eyes to move around (nystagmus).  Nystagmus is often misunderstood.  If you’re fortunate enough to have adequate enough vision to pass a DMV eye test, you still have to deal with the police.  Nystagmus is sometimes a by-product of being inebriated (drunk!)  Not much fun to live with.  But God blessed me with a musical gift and I managed to get through the early years with the help of music.


My father died unexpectedly in 1963 when I was 16.  Life suddenly became a lot less chaotic but the damage was done. I was shy, inhibited, paralyzed with fear due to a lack of social skills and other life incidents that affected me.  If you talk to my three brothers, it sounds as if we all grew up in different homes!  I can’t speak for them.  They are mostly very successful and happy with their lives.  Me?  I had many challenges that were the direct result of growing up in a dysfunctional home.  My mom did the best she could with what she had.  It wasn’t easy for her either.  I made mistakes and there were some consequences to my choices.  By the time I reached the age of 23, I’d learned about bad choices and the penalties associated with them.  Happily, I began making much better choices.  I was pretty content until my husband of 28 years passed away.  Life became really different and really real. 


Is alcoholism a sin?  I guess it depends on your interpretation of the Bible.  I’m not a Bible thumper and I’m no one to make judgements.  That’s not my job, it’s God’s.   I was thirty years old the last time I had a drink of alcohol.  Luckily for me, I was so fearful of drugs, they didn’t enter into the picture. 


This is the really important part --- I had been abstinent 18 years and really didn’t know what, if anything I believed in, in terms of spirituality.  I didn’t think there was a God big enough to love me.  I didn't realize that God would meet me where I was.  I had been searching my entire life.  The well known 12 step way of life was not enough for me.  It is helpful but you can only go so far without some help from that power much greater than yourself.  I had a vision one night, truly. I heard a voice.  No, it wasn’t really an audible voice but it sure didn’t come from me.  It took me some time, you could say it was a process, before I could openly acknowledge I had accepted Jesus as my Personal Savior.  It wasn’t easy and sharing that with my family, who had their owh ideas of a personal God or no idea in some cases was a challenge..  But I head steady.  I still do. 


I have been a follower of Jesus Christ since about November, 1995.  I participate in secular and faith-based recovery.  The Lord has given me a heart for women who have faced problems with alcohol, drugs and violence in their lives.   Is my life perfect?  No, but it’s a lot better than it would have been without the guidance of the Lord.  God has truly changed me and I have become a new creation in Christ.


2 Corinthians 5:17   Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation.[a] The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.


As a child of the God most high

  • I am a child of God
  • I am a branch of the true vine and a conduit of Christ’s life
  • I am a friend of Jesus
  • I have been justified and redeemed
  • My old self was crucified with Christ and I am no longer a slave to sin
  • I will not be condemned by God
  • I have been set free from the law of sin & death
  • As a child of God, I am a fellow heir with Christ
  • I have been accepted by Christ
  • I have been called to be a saint
  • In Christ Jesus, I have wisdom, righteousness, sanctification and redemption\
  • My body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who dwells in me
  • I am joined to the Lord and am one spirit with Him
  • God leads me in the triumph and knowledge of Christ
  • The hardening of my mind has been removed by Christ
  • I am a new creation in Christ
  • I have become the righteousness of God in Christ
  • I have been made one with all who are in Christ Jesus
  • I am no longer a slave but a child and an heir
  • I have been set free in Christ
  • I have been blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places
  • I am chosen, holy, and blameless before God
  • I am redeemed and forgiven by the grace of God
  • I have ben predestined by God to obtain an inheritance
  • I have been sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise
  • Because of God’s mercy and love, I have been made alive with Christ
  • I am seated in the heavenly places with Christ
  • I am God’s workmanship created to produce good works
  • I have been brought near to God by the blood of Christ
  • I am a member of Christ’s body and a partaker of His promise
  • I have boldness and confident access to God through faith in Christ
  • My new self is righteous and holy
  • I was formerly darkness, but now I am light in the Lord
  • I am a citizen of heaven
  • The peace of God guards my heart and mind
  • God supplies all my needs
  • I have been made complete in Christ
  • I have been raised up with Christ
  • My life is hidden with Christ in God
  • Christ in my life, and I will be revealed with Him in glory
  • I have been chosen of God, and I am holy and beloved
  • God loves me and has chosen me